Update

~I got a wedding invite in the mail today...it threw me off just a little because I did not recognize the return address at all...but then I realized that it was Heidi, as in Colin and Heidi. So I was very excited about that.

~I went to Amy's this weekend, it was a lot of fun, we made t-shirts and baked pies and watched movies...it was great fun, just like the good old days, including a violent attack during the night.

~I went to work on Monday and Tuesday, but Wednesday morning I got terribly sick, so I have been sleeping it off the last two days...hopefully I will be better tomorrow because I need to sing at church and then on Saturday my Alicia is coming to hang out with me.

~Just over 2 weeks until I see my baby

~I am currently listening to old school No Doubt...as in Tradgic Kingdom...sad sad sad.

~I feel the need to have a shower right now, so I think I will go do that...yes, good plan.

~Happy Easter to all, may Christ shine upon you now and always

Someone is getting older....

HIM!!!

Happy Birthday Graham! I love you!!!

That line just kills me

So, I have been thinking of things to make me laugh lately because I am a little down, not sure why...it might be because the weather is changing, or maybe because there is still 3 weeks roughly until Moncton...but then I thought, the sure fire way to make me laugh is to hear some random funny lines on tv, in person or the like...here are some recent ones (like in the last day or so)

We will be flirting with 70 tomorrow folks
Thats why I like it
You don't know what you are talking about
I missed her birthday for nothing?
I could really have a fungal eye disease, sweet deal!
Who gets married?
If you get married, I will lose my freak
Hey, it doesn't fit the front...thats okay, I will go around the side
So what if I don't fit in, I am going to be something
I really don't know who those people are
How long do I have to wait
Has anyone heard from Beth or is she dead?
You are so random
How often will they be in the same bed?

That is all for now, I realize that most of my readers are like "What the hell is she taking about? Those are not funny at all." Well...the context is missing, but let me tell you, I am laughing my butt off right now...which is a nice change of pace for me.

Oh Goodie...

Prince Harry, the third in line to the British throne, celebrated the end of his military training with a visit to a lap dancing club, British newspapers reported Saturday

Feeling....blah

I'm a little anti-encouragement lately.

I'm a little "you don't know me" lately.

I know - it's stand-offish.

But that doesn't bother me yet

Not sure what to tell you, this is just who I am right now

Ranting and Raving

Okay, so today is my day to just complain about everything...yes, I know it is a self appointed day, but I have been sick, so humour me.

1. Why the heck is it snowing outside right now? Does that seem fair to anyone? I mean, I for one like snow IN FEBRUARY!!!! Not so much in April, when I am looking towards to the beach/camp season...which reminds me...anyone up for going to Kick Off this year?

2. Why is it that when you call a repair man they always tell you that they will be at your house sometime between 10am and 6pm...apparently my heater is broken, so I can't have a life...stop everything, the fix it man doesn't know when he can make it...then when he shows up, he stares at you...which is a bit unnerving, and then tells you that there is absolutely nothing wrong with it. I suppose that is why it KEEPS RESETTING ITSELF TO 10 DEGREES...because it is fine...what I am thinking...I know nothing about fixing a furnace.

3. When someone asks you if they can replace the decorations on your door at work and you say yes, that would be fine...is that really code for change the whole classroom around without telling the teacher while she is at home puking her guts out? Apparently

4. Why are people at church so lukewarm now a days...I mean, if I sign up for a committee...I show up 99 % of the time...why won't other people take that same consideration? People are counting on us to put on a good preformation at the concert, but my band is a no show

5. Why can I not for the life of me remember important memories from the past few years? Honestly...gingerbread cookies at Timmy's illudes my memory to this day.

6. Why are some girls cheating lowdown skanks? And why doe they think they can get away with hurting super great guys but then still expect that his family members will except her with open arms?

7. People should have to take a test before they are allowed to reproduce...if you don't really, I mean REALLY want a child, then for goodness sakes, don't have one...you CANNOT legally send them back afterwards...and really...it is not fair to the father if you dump them on him either.

8. Why do American Idols always murder my favourite songs? Do they have no pride?

9. I have decided that I do not like who I become when I am writing these rants...I can be mean and vicious...it is not a pretty side of me what so ever...but hey, I am hot like bacon right?

10. Speaking of bacon, I got to thinking about that...does that mean that I am a) hot like "oh baby, you are looking fine this evening" or b) you are a fat greasy looking pig product but I bet you taste yummy?

11. I am still undecided on this new government we have going on right now...am I supposed to take Mr.Harper seriously or do I laugh in his face when he opens his mouth? Do I really trust a "man" who is currently trying to snuggle into bed with W? Not sure, the jury is out.

12...I am ranted out.

Another added to the list

Congrats goes out to a good old friend from camp DARA LAMBIE on her recent engagment to Choo Yeung! They got engaged on Saturday...in what I am told a very romantic proposal.

I made it!

I finally made it to 200 posts on my blog!!! It has only taken me 3 years to do it! Go me!

Update and Future Plans

~So, I currently have the flu, which really sucks because I was supposed to hang out with Ames this weekend and do the whole girly weekend thing...not going to happen...I was hoping that if I felt better by tonight, we could...but my energy is shot.

~My world is getting smaller by the minute...on my hi5 site, I was put in touch with a whole bunch of people from my childhood...which floods me full of old tortured memories, but I am working through them...that is a must.

~Last night, some kid at the concert (which I popped over for a second because my dad was not answering his cell), this kid is like 4...by 4 I really mean 14 years old...he told me that I was "so hot, hot like bacon" I couldn't help but laugh at this

~I am now totally addicted to the game SIMS...I cannot get enough of it.

~They just split my classroom at work...the 3.8-5 year olds have moved over to the other room now, which means that my babies are gone...(all the children that have been with me since the beginning of my employment there) but I am still left with 20 children...how does that work out? Alicia...you know what that means...third staff required

~Don't forget to change your clock tonight, spring forward an hour and risk being early for everything...or is it late? I never know. I think it is early

~In 29 days, Amy and me are getting on a train and headed to Moncton to see Graham (YAY) and to become tourist (even though we won't have a car)

~Graham is going to be graduating on May 6th from ABU, He has really worked his butt of these past few years, and I could not be more proud or love him more. Congrats Graham! I love you

~After Moncton, I am going to spend a week with him in Cambridge.

~Then back to work for the summer

~Lots of wedding are fast approaching: Mel and Gerry, Colin and Heidi, Elise and Scott, Judy and Steve, Marlene and Paul, Rita and Steven, Ted and Megan, and others

~That is all I got

You want to know what?

Firsts

First job: Brampton Guardian Paper Courier
First screen name: Angel
First funeral: that I remember...Grandpa West
First pet: Fluffy the cat
First piercing: My ears
First tattoo: Not Applicable..but I would like a little butterfly on my back
First credit card: n/a...I do not trust me
First kiss: Graham
First enemy: Brodie Woodiwiss and the gang...my childhood is tainted

Lasts

Last car ride: I got driven home from work tonight by my dad
Last kiss: January 12, 2006
Last movie watched: at the theatre:Failure to Launch, on TV:The Notebook
Last beverage drank: Mountain Dew
Last food consumed: I ate a Caramilk bar
Last phone call: Graham tonight
Last time showered: this morning:Friday
Last CD played: Swinging Tunes: The Best of the Early Years
Last web site visited: Think-on

Nows

Single or taken: completely taken
Gender: Female
Birthday: October 17
Sign: Libra (I am the scales)
Kids:I have 24 children, ranging from the ages of 2-5 years, all with different fathers...and mothers for that matter...I am a whore
Siblings: Jen(25) (Rob 25), Jon (20)
Hair color: currently black and red
Eye color: brown
Shoe size: 6
Height: 5'4''
Wearing: cirrently, blue jeans, a pink tank top and a black duster sweater
Drinking: Mountain Dew again
Thinking about: How tired I am right now, and how pointless this entry is
Listening to: Swingin Tunes and my brother's TV

Answer to Prayer

Some of you may have heard about my cousin Ryan who lives in California...for those who don't know, he is 10 years old and has had leukemia since he was 4. Anyways, things were looking really bad and it was done to a bone marrow transplant, or he will die. They have been searching for a transplant for over a year now, with no luck, all of the family failed...except for me because I was not allowed to donate...stupid parasite...Finally after an exhauting search, a match was found. (With bone marrow, there is 8 crititeria that needs to be met, a match consists of only 6) This match for Ryan is a perfect 8! Which is totally amazing because this person is not family. God is so awesome! I ask for continued prayer however, because he still needs to undergo the surgery and avoid infection...and will be in the hospital for 5 months. But the fun news is that Jay Leno is putting on a benefit for him.

Random Questions

1. Elaborate on your default icon/picture on Blogger.
It's me at the Santa Parade...that is all

2. What's your current relationship status?
currently I am happy dating Graham...it has been 4 years now

3. What exactly are you wearing right now?
pink track pants, a pink tank top, a pink work out jacket and a cat sock/pink sock

4. What is your current problem?
That I am painting my back hall the colour of baby poop

5. What do you love most?
Graham and the colour pink

6. What makes you most happy?
Graham and flowers

7. Are you musically inclined?

I like to pretend that I am musically inclined

8. If you could go back in time, and change something what would it be?

What if Hitler had a kitten? Could a boy who has a kitten REALLY grow up to be a dictator?

9. Ever have a near-death experience?

For me, every experience is a near death experience

10. Name an obvious quality you have.

I am rust-proof.

11. What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now?

As Lovers Go by D/C

12. Any celeb you would marry?

hmmm...I would not marry any because I love Graham, but I would love to meet Keith Urban

13. Name someone with the same birthday as you.

My cousin Chris actually, also, by a quick net search, Eminem, Alan Jackson and Evel Knievel

14. Do you have a crush on someone?

Graham Ware

15. Have you ever vandalized someones private property?

Yes. At Camp

16. Have you ever been in a fight?

Sure have

17. Have you ever sung in front of a large audience?

I actually have

18. What's the first thing you notice about the OPPOSITE sex?

Why do they always put this question in these quizzez? It's a dumb question.

19. What do you usually order from Starbucks?

I've been in starbucks a total of twice, but both times I had a Chai Tea Latte

20. Have you ever hurt yourself on purpose?

I've kicked the crap out myself repeatedly...Fight Club is my biography you know

21. Say something totally random.

Do you want to lick this?

22. Has anyone ever said you look like a celebrity?

I have gotten Jennifer Garner and the girl from Braveheart

23. Do you wear a watch?Hell yeah

24. Do you have anything pierced?

Both ears, and the top of one and my belly button

25. Do you have any tattoos?

nah

26. Do you like pain?

Who doesn't? I blew my head off in 'Nam just for fun. Luckily, I grew another one, and my lesson was learned.

27. Do you like to shop?

I like to buy pens...yes, yes I do

28. What was the last thing you paid for with cash?

A movie rental actually...Pride and Prejudice

29. What was the last thing you paid for with a credit card?

No credit cards for me

30. Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone?

My daddy

31. What is on your desktop background?

Graham...I am obsessed

32. What is the background on your cell phone?

Graham and Me

33. Do you like redheads?

Sure...who doesn't

34. Do you know any twins?

I don't know any personally, I know of some.

35. Do you have any weird relatives?

Yes, but some of them read this so they will remain anonymous

36. What was the last movie you watched?

Failure to Launch

37. What was the last book you read?

Just Above A Whisper by Lori Wick

38. Did you or are you planning to go to college?

Yup and no

39. What is your favorite pair of pants that you own?

my pink track pants, or my beige cords

40. Do you like to party?

Everyday

41. Where do you see yourself in five years?

With you, mystery quiz writer, in 'Nam or married somewhere doing something good

Why girls like guys?

1. The way they smile a you, even when they think you're being an idiot

2.The way they can make you the center of their world.

3. The way their hugs make you feel everything is going to be ok.

4. The way girls can lose their heads when we get near them.

5. The way they stand up for you even when you're wrong.

6. The way they always give compliments when you don't really need them.

7. When they look soooo cute when wanting to hold your hand.

8. The way they keep us confused and guessing.

9. The way, even if you aren't pretty, they make you feel like you're perfect.

10. The way their shoulders are always shaped perfectly to fit your head.

11. And how their clothes are always the right material to wipe your tears.

12. And how, you can fall asleep on the couch with them, and know that they will chase away your bad dreams.

13. How they show off for you but know when they've taken it too far.

14. How they say we're always right (we normally are though)

15. And how their hands are soft and always seeking yours. They will guide you and protect you. They will be your strength and your compassion.

16. The way that they will willingly do something stupid just to make you feel less of an idiot.

17. They way that they always seem to find their ways into our thoughts

18. How you can talk for seemingly hours, but once he says good bye, you start missing him like crazy

19. The way that i took 10 minutes of my day to write mushy, yet true, things about my favourite guy.

20. How they laugh at your jokes when you know that they wern't funny.

21. The way they can always make you smile even when your so far down

22. How your day is suddenly perfect just by seeing them

23. How even when they act like a jerk you can still love them

24. How good their voice sounds when they say hello

25. When they show off and try to impress you and end up looking like a tool

26. the way it brightens up your day just to help them smile

27. the way they can make you smile no matter how down you feel

28. knowing that even though you don't see each other, that they will always be there no matter what

29. the way they look at you when you say something that they don't understand but don't want to admit they don't understand (that one is priceless)

30. the way they laugh at you when you don't understand soemthing they say and you try to figure it out without asking (I get that a lot)

When you get this, please send it on to someone who you care about, be it a best friend or a boyfriend/girlfriend, or even better, both. Cuz everyone should feel this, and if you dont, hell, you can just virturally burn it

It's a small world after all

So, today I went to the Bramalea City Centre with my brother to buy some concert tickets...I am not going, he is with his girlfriend. Anyways, that is besides the point, I was in HMV looking at DVDs because hey, thats what I do. But yeah, this guy and girl came up to me and asked if I was Jennelle, and I was like "yeah...I am" and they said "from the Strath?" and I was like "yeah...I lived there" thinking that this is really creepy and what the hell. These people did not look overly familar to me, but hey, if they were from the Strath, I wouldn't recognize them because I left when I was 11...but I was curious...so I asked these two if I knew them...of course they said "yes, we were in grade 6 together, with Mr.Patterson" and I frantically trying to place these two people in my mind...but no luck...finally I asked who they were and I was surprised with the answer,
Mr. and Mrs. Brodie Woodiwiss, aka Brodie and Natalie from Grade 6,
Nat was my best friend for most of my childhood, and Brodie was the head of the group who used to torment me and made my childhood a nightmare.
We spent some time catching up before my brother said we needed to go...it was weird

Christianity:Boring, Untrue and Irrelevant

Today is is popular to argue that it does not matter what you believe so long as you are sincere. But surely, that is crazy. Nothing matters so much as what we believe. Hitler's sincere beliefs led to the deaths of millions of Jews. Jack the Ripper's sincere belief led him to murder prostitutes. More positively, Nelson Mandela's sincere beliefs drove him to led his people to freedom. What you believe matters; it determines the course of your life. Nowhere is that more true than in the arena of faith. The brilliant academic and Christian writer C.S Lewis put it this way, "Christianity is a statement which, if false, is of no importance, and, if true, of infinate importance. The one thing it cannot be is moderately important." Do yourself a favour: take the time to examine your beliefs

We are young people in the 21st Century! What on earth does Christianity offer us?
It offers us:
1)Direction for a lost world
2)reality in a confusing world
3) life in a dark world
"I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life." John 14:6

Conclusion:
Christianity is NOT boring: it is about living life to the full
Christianity is NOT untrue: it is the truth
Christianity is NOT irrelevant: it transforms the whole of our lives

Update to end all Updates

~I got my Sheridan student fired today, and now I feel a little bad about it because I know what it feels like, but at the same time, she brought it upon herself.

~My brother broke my glass doll today when he was carrying his amp down the stairs...it made me a little sad, but at the same time, why was the doll at the bottom of the stairs?

~I have a vacation week coming up soon, I will be spending it at home with my sister, brother and brother in law painting the house...restful

~Add more weddings to my agenda please, I am proud to announce that my future mother-in-law, (no I am not engaged) is getting married to Steve. Congrats you two!!

~Me and Ames will be taking the train out to Moncton the first week of May for Graham's grad. Not sure where we are staying when we get there, but it should still be a good time. Also, the whole "tourist" thing could be a bit of an issue...seeing as none of us will have a car...but anyways...moving on

~My cat went crazy and attacked my brother the other day, it was bad...blood, blood, blood.

~Is it bad when the church camp you have been going to all those years forgets to put a capital on "Jesus Christ as your personal Saviour" in the flyers they sent out?

~I need for winter to be over, my skin is so dry it actually hurts

~One of my favourite shows just killed off one of my favourite actors (Keith, may you rest in peace)

~I need to go to sleep now

~I am done my taxes

~I have no clean clothes for the morning

~Sleep now

~I am going to be a character in my friends book!

~Sleep now for really

In the "Biblical Sense"

Okay, so Grey's Anatomy this week, was well...kinda boring/interesting/what the hell. I am not going to reiterate the whole thing, because really, I do not want to bore some people, but what the hell!

Maybe I just have not been watching this show long enough, but has George always had a thing for Meredith? Did I miss this? I was so confused, in my head, it sort of came out of left field...maybe there is more to it than I think, someone help me out. But I was asked for my reaction to their getting to know each other in the Biblical sense, and well...at first I was like "what the hell?" I thought that Meredith was like "so in love" with McDreamy and then suddenly she is taking off George's shirt...what? I am not sure I am a fan of the two of them, true it is cute and all...but really...I am holding out for a reunion of the McDreamy and Grey...A little disappointed, but George is cute with her too...so I don't know what to think, maybe time will tell, and hopefully some background info will surface so I can better understand.

The cases this week were good...angry video man made me laugh and did have a good point of not letting things go unsaid, the girl's was well...unfortunate really, but fixable, and it is good to go to church. Lion Boy was just sad, I cried, I did not want him to die.

McSteamy was a good twist, I really wish that Montgomery-Shepherd went back to him, but she seems to want to punish herself by sticking with McDreamy...so we will see how that turns out.

Burke was pissed because he thought that Christina was not committed and then he found out that she kept her old apartment "just in case" and he confronted her as she ate chinese food in bed...and she admitted to giving up her apartment 20 minutes ago...Burke's reaction "we're good here" and walked away...very nice.

Izzy and Alex gave into the beast

And as mentioned before Mere and George, Bibical sense implied.

4 Years Ago Today...

I was at the Baptist Leadership Education Centre (may it rest in peace) and the most wonderful, fabulous man asked me to be with him. Obviously I said "yes" or I would not be writing this post right now. Here is the story of how it came to be...it is rather rocky at the start.

I must admit that there was an attraction from the very moment that Ames introduced us, but I was dating someone else and things were not going well in that area, so Graham became my friend, he was there for me when things got bad with the other guy and always told me that I deserved better. I eventually broke it off with that other guy and Graham and me became better friends. People began to make assumptions about us, but we stuck with "we are just friends" but now, I don't think we were ever "just friends" there was always 'something' between us. Needless to say, we began to be thrown together for a lot of things, baseball games, Encounter, Hermosa, random hanging out with Ames and the guy who is nameless and finally BLEC. At BLEC the assumption got worse, and I got scared, so I pulled back and we fought a lot during that time, several times, we did not talk to each other for days, which was miserable and everyone saw but us.
One evening, while or friendship was alright, I asked him to come with me to Cullen Gardens (may it rest in peace) to see the Christmas Lights, because I love lights. While walking, I noticed that Graham was not acting like himself, but I tried to convince him to tell me whats up, but he refused...so we went back to the school and he was still acting really weird. I sort of forced him to tell me what was going on...which of course was "I like you as more than just a friend" to which I got scared, said "I don't" and ran off, I was a jerk.
That weekend, I was going home for some reason, it was probably to see the doctor, but before I left, Graham stuck a note in my mailbox, which I still have saying "That I was will always have his heart and if I ever want it, it will be gladly given to me fully" I went home. While there, I realized that I was miserable without him and everyone knew it, so I planned to tell him when I got back to the building on Monday afternoon, which so happened to be the day of the Christmas Banquet. However, I never got the chance, I was told something that made me really sad, he was dating someone else because he was hurt by me and I never told him. I tried to be happy for him, but I couldn't quite pull it off and everyone knew.
He ended that relationship because it was not fair to either of them, and that woman is now happily married. But we tried to get our friendship back on track. That is when it happened. We were watching a movie with everyone in the lounge, I am not sure what movie it was because I was not paying attention to the movie, I had stolen the pillow and blanket that Graham had brought into the room and I was laying against him, and I suppose that is when he realized that I had let my guard down. When the movie was over, we went to the kitchen to get juice, he confronted me and I told him that I liked him but there was that question of 'where do we go from here?" and "what about the other girl?" Those questions went unanswered not sure why, but then my dad had a heart attack and I went home, and we didn't see each other for two weeks...I had him come visit me over Reading Week and we spent a lot of time talking and then he kissed me, but even that was cut short because I had to go to Blizzard...
In the end, he asked me to be with him again, on February 19, 2002 in the dinning room of BLEC. And we have been happy ever since, enduring distance and stress. So,

HAPPY 4 YEAR ANNIVERSARY GRAHAM, I LOVE YOU MORE THAN SWEDISH BERRIES!

I've been hit

Four jobs I have had:

i) Preschool Teacher
ii) Kitchen Cutie
iii) Handy Hottie
iv) Paper Courier

Four movies I could watch over and over:
a) Sweet Home Alabama
b) Casablanca
c) Dirty Dancing
d) 13 Going on 30

Four books I could read over and over:

1) The Bible
2) Max Lucado's "When God Whispers Your Name"
3) Paper Bag Princess
4) Sharon Jaynes' "Becoming the Woman"

Places I have lived:
1)Alvinston
2)Strathroy
3)Whitby
4)Goderich
5)Brampton

Four places I have been on vacation:
i) Florida
ii) PEI
iii) New York State
iv) Bailiebourgh

Four websites I visit daily:
a) the Weather Network
b) Soap Central
c) Yahoo
d) Think-On

Four favourite foods:
1) Chicken Fingers
2) Pizza
3) roast beef
4) mac n' cheese

Four favourite non-alcoholic drinks:
i) iced tea
ii) tea tea
iii) Apple juice
iv) apple cider

Four favourite musicians:
a) Hello Kelly
b) Keith Urban
c) Jonny West
d) Steven Curtis Chapman

Four places I would like to be right now:
1) whereever Graham is
2) Moncton
3) anyplace warm
4) home (I am still at work)

Last four books I read:
i) The Bible, just about finished my yearly read through
ii) Lori Wick's "Just Above A Whisper"
iii) Sharon Jaynes' "Become the Woman"
iv) Lori Wick's "Who Brings Forth The Wind"

Last four movies I have seen:
a) Just Like Heaven
b) Elizabethtown
c) The Wedding Date
d)A Sharks Tale

What's on my desk right now?
a bazillion picture frames of friends and family, Lappy, a teddy bear, my dried flowers, a santa mug from Graham, some DVDs, my TV, VCR and DVD player, my pretty princess lamp, some chocolates, a mirror, some trinkets, benedryl, my MP3 player

Bloggers I'm tagging:

April
Amy
Tim
Sanda
Patricia
Gerry
Jonny

The day of Love is upon us

Love is a simple word, only one syllable. Yet it is extraordinary. Few emotions can cause such distress or make us feel so delirious with joy. Love is sought after and coveted by even the most wicked and wretched among us. It is the inspiration for the most delightful poetry, the most exquisite art and the greatest music. People live and die for it. They make the most noble sacrifices in love's name, or commit the vilest deeds.

No word is as misused, misunderstood and misinterpreteted as love. It can be used too lightly and also too sparingly. For even when we are certain that it exists in the heart of our beloved, we want to hear it and see it.

Love can't be adequately defined or proven. It is mysterious and elusive. The quest for it is the essence of humanity.

Love is often confused with crushes and obsession or trivialized and used to decieve and manipulate. So, how do we know when it is real? Where is the shield to protect us against the ravages of lost love or the disappointment of unrequitted love?

For insight on matters of the heart, it is usually helpful to turn to my good friend Willy Shakespere, particularily his beautiful sonnets. The Bard said it best when he wrote that love "bears it out even to the edge of doom." The fallout from a love gone sour is terrible. Yet, if love is not worth the risk, why are we willing to go to such great lengths to find it and experience it? In the poem "Desiderada" we are advised against being cynical. "For in the face of all aridity and disenchantment, it is as perennial as the grass."

In a world of disillusionment and disaffection, romance is still very much alive.

It should be celebrated and cherished and SHOUTED FROM THE ROOF TOPS!

so here goes:

GRAHAM, I LOVE YOU! HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!