Spell your first name backwards: ellenej
Where do you live?: Brampton
DESCRIBE YOUR:
[Wallet]: it is a very nice, made by Graham, duct tape wallet with little fish stickers stuck on by me
[Jewelry worn daily]: usually, silver hoop earings, and my heart neckless
[Shoes]: seriously, I have about 15 pairs...
[Handbag]: a multi-coloured one that Jen brought me back from Bolivia
[Favorite top]: ummm..either my Punk Princess tank top or one of my Princess shirts
[Piercing]: one in each ear, and my belly button
[What you are wearing now]: a pair of jeans and a t-shirt
[On my mind]: everything from school to work to friends to relationships...it's a mess in my mind
[Wishing]: that someone could just make all my decisions for me
[Talking to]: Graham, who else would I be talking to
[Eating]: nothing at the present moment, although, I did just finish a yummy cookie
[favorite movie]: I seriously do not like this question because I never know how to answer it...I love movies, it is true, I really enjoy watching movies, but when it comes to picking my favourite...I have so many...let's go with The Princess Bride and Ever After...yes, those ones...although...I also like the Wal-Mart Baby movie, and Gone in 60 seconds...the Matrix Trilogy was really good as well...see...dangerous question...move on
[something you're looking forward to in the upcoming months]: ummm...graduating, going to hermosa, seeing my friends and family, seeing Graham more...ummm...that is all
[The last thing you ate?]: I just said that I finished eating a cookie...it was yummy...but before that I had a turkey sandwich from Timmy's
[Something that you are deathly afraid of?]: the real question here, is what is Jenelle not deathly afraid of...that is what is on everyones mind...but I will give you my top 5 fears (in no particular order) being alone, thunderstorms, heights, flying and needles
[Do you believe in love]: that is a definate yes
Do you believe in soul mates]: I believe that I do, and I believe that not everyone finds theirs...but I have mine
[Do you believe in love at first sight]: no, I believe in LUST at first sight
[Do you believe in forgiveness]: yes, I am a big fan of forgiveness
[What are some of your favorite pig out foods?]: I'm not that big on "pigging out" but I do like the occasional Swedish berry, or Ketchup Chips
[What's something you wish you could understand better?]: why good people sometimes do really stupid things and hurt the people they care about
[Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time?]: yes, I have a lot of people that I am missing right now, but it would take me years to write them all down, so here goes...if you know me (which all of you do because I am sending this to you) and you have not seen me today, then I miss you
In the last 24 hours, have you:
[Cried?]: actually yes, I have, but this is me we are talking about, you would know something was wrong if I didn't cry today
[Gotten sick]: yes, I was sick just a few minutes ago, stupid peanuts!
[Eaten?]: yes, I like to eat, I do it all the time
[Been kissed?]: unfortunately no :-(
[Felt stupid?]: I always feel stupid, goes with being me
[told someone you loved them]: yes, I did!
[Met someone new?]: Actually yes, a father on the baseball team brought his new girlfriends, so I met her
[Moved on?]: no...I can't think of anything that I would need to be moving on about...
[Talked to an ex?]: no, nor would I want to
[Missed an ex?]: HA, not in their lives
[Talked to someone you have a crush on?]: yes, actually I did
[Had a serious talk?]: not really serious...but not comical either, I mean it could have lead to something more serious in talking nature, but we kept it on the down low
[Hugged someone?]: no...:-(
[Fought with your parents?]: it would not be a complete day if I didn't fight with my mother...I got yelled at like 7 times in one hour today, YIPPEE
[Done something your parents said no to]: see above
Would you rather be with friends or on a date?]: I would want to be with friends, because a "date" for me, would be with my boyfriend, who is my best friend
[Do you have a job?]: yes, well...I will...I am working at camp
[Do you like being around people?]: sometimes, unless I don't like the people, then no
Who…
[Have you known the longest]: I lied, Jen Ford, I have known her since I was a baby, she reminded me of this fact
[Do you argue the most with?]: ummm other then my parents...probably...I have no idea...I am not really a arguing type of person
[Do you always get along with?]: everyone
[Is the most trustworthy?]: well it's obviously God...but Graham, Amy, April, or Em, Karl
[Makes you laugh the most?]: The Fab 4 plus 2 whenever we are all together
[Has been there through all the hard times?]: Graham, April, Amy, Em and Karl for sure
[Has the coolest parents?]: ummm...Graham, his mom is great, Amy's parents are awesome as well
[Is the most blunt?]: April or Graham
[Is the smartest?]: Me! pick me, pick me
Other stuff...
[Who is your role model?]: Jesus or my father
[Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with?]: who hasn't...it's what you do in high school
[Have you ever cried over the opposite sex?]: sure have...not that I am proud of this fact, I am such a geek
[Do you have a "type" of person you always go after?]: no...well someone who cares about me and will treat me right...thats about it really...everything else is just bonus
[Ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you]: all the time! No, really, this is me, I run away from problems not cause them
[Rather be the dumper or dumped?]: both are horrible, so I pick neither
[Rather have a relationship or a "hookup"?]: relationships, they mean a whole heck of a lot more in the long run
Ever liked your best guy/girl friend?]: actually I do
[want to get married?]: yes, very much so
[want kids?]: yes, I want a whole bunch of kids, no less than 6
[Do you believe you know the person whom you will marry at this point in time?]: Yes, I can wholeheartedly say that I know exactly who it is that I am going to marry
[What is your favorite part of your emotional being?]: my emotional what? who wrote these questions? I have an emotional being? News to me? When do I get to meet this being?
[Are you happy with you?] yes, I am happy with me, we are very good, we understand each other
[Are you happy with your life?]: somethings need adjusting but that will take time, so I am happy with where I am right now
MORE AND MORE AND MORE
Have you ever had a song written about you: well...one year, at Camp Hermosa, my last year as a camper, the Fab 4 wrote some really crazy songs, and there were some about me...and my feet
3) What song makes you cry: again, what songs do not make me cry? Currently, any love song will make me cry
4) What song makes you happy: right now, anything Country, or by Dashboard confessional...really As Lovers go...but check out my website...for a complete list of happy songs check below
5) What do you like to listen to before bed: anything, I enjoy falling asleep to music
a p p e a r a n c e
HEIGHT: 5'4, or 5'5 not sure
HAIR: it is quite the mix right now, there is some blond, some brown, some black and some red all mixed in there and it is actually getting pretty long
SKIN COLOR: well...right now I have a little bit of a tan from a few weeks back...but normally peachy pink
EYE COLOR: brown
TATTOOS: no, none of those...I don't think I would ever get a tattoo...
r i g h t n o w
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO: When you Kiss Me --Shania
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH: actually...I'm not sure...maybe water...does that even have a taste? I think not
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE: For once, it is not raining, it is a little chilly out, but not raining
d o y o u
GET MOTION SICKNESS: depends, if I read in the car, then yes
HAVE A BAD HABIT: who doesn't..I have enough to field an army.
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: sometimes, more so my dad than my mom
LIKE TO DRIVE: I do not drive
f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: 7th Heaven, Gilmore Girls, Charmed, Everwood, One Tree Hill, American Idol and Survivor, OLTL, AMC
BOOK: anything Shakesphere, or by Lori Wick
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: fruit punch or apple juice
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: I do not drink
BAND OR GROUP OR SINGER OR RAPPER: Dashboard, Fighting the Fall, Backward Heros (brother's band), FM Static, or Krutch
h a v e y o u
BROKEN THE LAW: not recently, but I mostly likely have before in my life...in fact, when I was 4, I stole candy from the convenince store...they were inn open bins...I thought "yummy candy" COME ON, I WAS 4 YEARS OLD!!!! Don't judge me
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: not exactly, I like to get away from home...but that is not really running
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: in my younger days
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: This one I can honestly say no too
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: yeah...it's part of growing up
? EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: no...wait...I watched a friend tip over a porta potty...But I never took part
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: well not without their permission
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: of course...that is also part of growing up
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: no...I do not want to drown
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: yep, serveral...The Trial of Goldilocks was my first (I was momma bear)and who can forget "I am not my freaking khakis", where I played Stella
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: many times, that is what my shoulders are there for, come on now
SEXUALITY: straight
CURRENT CRUSH: does Graham count? I think he should count, so yes, I have a crush on Graham
BEEN IN LOVE: yes
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: yes, but who doesn't
BEEN HURT: who hasn't? ( I agree Beth, everyone has to have been hurt sometime in their life, if they haven't then they are missing out on one of life's most important aspects)
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: not saying 'yes' to a certain someone the first time they asked me out
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: I changed my mind...technically yes, I did "go out" with Kyle after one day of camp...it doesn't really count...but whatever, who really cares anyways
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: yes...haven't I answered this already...I am working in the kitchen at Camp Hermosa...I feel like I am repeating myself here
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: it is a mix CD of my favourite country songs from last summer
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? hot hot pink
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY: my friends and hermosa, and life in general
WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIESt: my friends and Graham, family and little white rabbits (that do not kill people)
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET: which ever one catches my eye next...I would like to get Clay's CD but we shall see
WHO DO YOU CONSIDER GOOD FRIENDS: there are a whole heck of a lot of them...but everyone I sent this to...can consider themselves on the list, and hey, if you sent it back to me...I will put you on twice
w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t TIME YOU CRIED: cried for real? tonight actually, I like my mind go crazy, and it upset me quite a bit...so I cried...maybe I will say why one day
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER: a couple of days ago
YOU GOT E-MAIL: today...
THING YOU PURCHASED: I bought some candles for a shower present
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: One Life to Live (come on, my stories are great)seriously, the last time I watched tv was yesterday afternoon
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: that is an excellent question..pretty sure it was the Passion
y o u r t h o u g h t s o n ABORTION: bad, very very bad...I don't care what you call it, it is still MURDER
TEENAGE SMOKING: if you want to put that crap into your body, then it's your choice, just don't do it near me, it will kill me
DREAMS: yeah, I have those, sometimes they are fun, sometimes they are not...but yeah
Saturday, May 29, 2004
Monday, May 24, 2004
Favourite Songs of today
Hey all, Wow, I am really bad at this blogging thing, and to think it is only going to get worse, as I am leaving in just over a month to live at camp for the summer...what a time that will be...anyways, today I thought that I would give you my top 12 favourite songs, the lyrics to them, so you will all know what I am spouting on about. Anyways, here they are, in no particular order:
Song #1: I'm Sensitive
Jewel
(from: pieces of you)
I was thinking, that I might fly today
Just to disprove all the things that you say
It doesn't take a talent to be mean
Your words can crush things that are unseen
So please be careful with me
I'm sensitive,
And I'd like to stay that way
You always tell me, that it's impossible
To be respected and be a girl
Why's it gotta be so complicated
Why you gotta tell me if I'm hated
So please be careful with me
I'm sensitive
And I'd like to stay that way
I was thinking that it might do some good
If we robbed the cynics and took all their food
That way what they believe will have taken place
And we'll give it to people who have faith
So please be careful with me
I'm sensitive
And I'd like to stay that way
I have this theory, that if we're told we're bad
Then that's the only idea we'll ever have
But maybe if we are surrounded in beauty
Someday we will become what we see
Cause anyone can start a conflict
It's harder yet to disregard it
I'd rather see the world from another angle
We are everyday angels
Be careful with me, cause I'd like to stay that way
Song #2: Things I'll Never Say
Avril Lavigne
(from: Let Go)
I'm tugging at my hair
I'm pulling at my clothes
I'm trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I'm staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I'm searching for the words inside my head
I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it
You're worth it..yeah..
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say that I want to blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down on one knee
Marry me today
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say
It don't do me any good
It's just a waste of time
What use is it to you?
What's on my mind?
If it ain't coming out
We're not going anywhere
So why can't I just show you that I care
Cause I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it,
You're worth it...yeah...
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I say what I want to see
I want to see you go down on one knee
Marry me today
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say
What's wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble
Like I've got nothing to say
La da da da da (continued)
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I say what I want to see
I want to see you go down on one knee
Marry me today
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say
Song #3: She's not just a pretty face
Shania Twain
(from: UP)
She hosts a TV show, she rides the rodeo
She plays the bass in a band
She's an astronaut
a valet at the parking lot
A farmer working the land
She is a champion, she gets the gold
She's a ballerina, the star of the show
She's not just a pretty face
She's got everything it takes
She has a fashion line
A journalist for "Time"
Coaches a football team
She's a geologist, a romance novelist
She is the mother of three
She is a soldier, she is a wife
She is a surgeon, she'll save your life
She's not just a pretty face
She's got everything it takes
She's the mother of the human race
She's not just a pretty face
Oh, Oh, yeah
Oh, na, na, na, na
She is your waitress, she is your judge
She is your teacher
She is every woman in the world
Oh, la,la, la
She flies an airplane
She drives a subway train
At night she pumps gasoline
She's on the council, she's on the board
She's a politician, she praises the Lord
She's not just a pretty face
She's got everything it takes
She's the mother of the human race
She's not just a pretty face
Song #4: Princes and Frogs
Superchic(k)
(from: Last One Picked)
You hate me, that's what you say
And I understand why you feel that way
All girls dream of a fairy tale
But all you got's like a used car sales-
Man trying to conceal what's wrong
Behind a smile and a song
And I'm not saying that boys are not like that
But I think you should know
That some of us will grow
because...
All princes start as frogs
All gentlemen as dogs
Just wait till it's plain to see
what we're growing up to be
Cause some frogs will still be frogs
Some dogs will still be dogs
But some boys will become men
Just don't kiss us til then
Song #5: As Lovers Go
Dashboard COnfessional
(from: A Mark~A Mission~A Brand~A Scar)
She said, "I've gotta be honest,
You're wasting you're time if you're fishing around here"
I said, "You must be mistaken,
I'm not fooling, this feeling is real"
She said, "You gotta be crazy!
What do you take me for? Some easy mark?"
"No, you've got wits,
You've got looks,
You've got passion,
But I swear that you've got me all wrong."
I'll be true,
I'll be useful,
I'll be cavalier,
I'll be yours my dear,
I'll belong to you if you just let me through.
This is easy as lovers go
So don't complicate it, by hesitating
This is wonderful as loving goes
This is tailor-made, what's the sense in waiting?
I said, "I've gotta be honest,
I've been waiting for you all my life."
For so long I thought I was asylum bound,
But just seeing you makes me think twice.
And being with you makes me sane
I fear I'll go crazy if you leave my side.
"You got wits,
You've got looks,
You've got passion,
But are you brave enough to leave with me tonight?"
Song #6: Carry You To Jesus
Steven Curtis Chapman
(from: Declaration)
I will not pretend to know the pain you're going through
I know I cannot comprehend the hurt you've known
And I used to think it mattered if I understood
But now I just don't know
Well, I'll admit sometimes I still wish I knew what to say
And I keep looking for a way to fix it all
But we know we're at the mercy of God's higher way
And our ways are so small
But I will carry you to Jesus
He is everything you need
I will carry you to Jesus on my knees
It's such a privilege for me to give this gift to you
All I'd ever hope you'd give me in return
Is to know that you'll be there to do the same for me
When the tables turn
But I will carry you to Jesus
He is everything you need
I will carry you to Jesus on my knees
And if you need to cry, go on and I will cry along with you
I'll give you what I have but still
I know the best thing I can do
Is just pray for you
I'll carry you
I'll take you to Jesus on my knees
Song #7: Hold Me Twice
FM Static
(from: What are you waiting for?)
I saw you in the hallway
I bet thats what they all say
You probably didn't even notice
I was the loser,
Who was staring at my shoes
I couldn't think of nothing to say
I'm on a runway
Of a flight that's going one way
On "Cross your fingers" airlines
I'm picking my pace
I'm getting nervous in the worst way
Here goes nothing,
I saw you walking over
Now you're moving closer
Wrote you a letter about a week ago
To my surprise, you replied and said:
You can hold me once, you can hold me twice
Even better if the stars are good tonight
You can hold me, be my one and only.
This is the reply to the letter you wrote me
You told me to meet you after gym class
But I forgot to get a hall pass
I got sent to the office
You tried to call me,
Asked everyone who saw me, they didn't even notice
You're on your way now
Moving with your parents to some hick town
A thousand miles away
I'm in the playground, with my memories
So much I could say now
I still remember when
I saw you walking over
You're slowly moving closer,
I wrote you a letter about a week ago
And to my surprise, you replied and said:
You can hold me once, you can hold me twice
Even better if the stars are good tonight
You can hold me, be my one and only
This is the reply to the letter you wrote me
It's been awhile since we said "hi"
three hundred sixty-five days have gone by now
And I could paint a picture of you
I see you everytime I pass your locket
Remember he time we talked till six am
And I'm tired of missing you
Song #8: Jefferson Aeroplane
Relient K
(from: 2 lefts don't make a right...but 3 do)
If it hurts, kiss it better
You wear skirts, I write nice letters
Never said nothing with flowers,
But we always talk for hours
And it seems to get much colder,
When you cry on your own shoulder
And we know the show must go on
Guess I know, I guess I'll throw on
Some Jefferson Aeroplane
I'm trapped and I am enclosed
But I won't complain,
I'll open all the windows
Cause when it's colder
I feel much better
When you cry on your own shoulder
Just throw on a sweater and go
And I'll go to undergo a change of heart, a chang of clothes
And when I'm home,
I guess I'll go eat cereal and stare out the window
I'll make the calls, you cover your ears
Niagra Falls still flows on New Years
I'll save your plunging neckline
Kiss your face, you try to deck mine
If I behave, it'ss gonna cost him
Skip the rave in Downtown Boston
And we know the show must go on
Guess I know, I guess I throw on...
CHORUS
And I'll go to undergo a surgery to purge me of this lonely mood
And my ego, the staus quo, provides me with a decent attitude
And I'll go to undergo a change of heart a chang of clothes
And when I'm home, I think I'll go eat cereal and stare out the window
But you confuse me more than anyone
An adjustment has begun to let me feel
The desperate need to leave what we undid undone
And maybe you can sympathize
With the bags under my eyes
And we'll see the signs are saying
that we have used up all our tries
Try to be a better person
To be a better friend
To be a better son
He tries to be a better someone
Who understands the difference
And that he can't show all the people, all the things
That really mean as much as he could feel
Feels like I don't remember
Ever being this tired before
Before now my eyes were closed to all the beauty of this world
And I'll go to undergo a surgery to purge me of this loney mood
And my ego, the status quo provides me with a decent attitude
And I'll go to undergo a change of heart a change of clothes
And I'll go, oh yes I'll go
And hope this new me shows so everybody knows
That I've found myself able to fly away
Without magic feathers or Jefferson Aeroplanes
I've got with me all that I need
Song #9: Airport Road
Straight Edge (RIP)
(from: Shadows and Silhouettes)
It's the summer, and I'm far from home
And I'd write you or call you on the phone
And then I remember what it was like
When I was free, when I was free
But it's over, far from now
And you're far from, my heart
And your speed dial, is off my phone
Ans I can't remember, your number
Romances and tragedies,
The best of friends we'll never be
Yeah the truth is on m tongue
I wish you could understand
I wanted nothing more than a friend
But I guess I was wrong
So I'll carry on with my life
And I guess that I don't care
Again is this over? Are you done?
Yeah, you're with him,
But your friends are gone
I could believe that you're the one
But I could be wrong
And this melody that's in my heart
Is telling me to stay away
Romances and tragedies
The best of friends, we'll never be
Yeah, the truth is on my tongue
I wish you could understand
I wanted nothing more than a friend
But I guess I was wrong
I wanted nothing more
Song #10: What's Simple is True
Jewel
(from: Spirit)
Turn to me with frozen lips
Your hands are icy cold
Your eyes burn brightly against the frist bit sky
You never seemed more lovely than you do tonight
Plae on the horizon
Like leaves frozen in the snow
Our two shadows merge inseparatly
Will time stand still if it's pierced with cold
The more I live
The more I know
What's simple is true
I love you
There's a warmth in my heart
It haunts me when you're gone
Mend me to your side and never let go
Say "Time knows nothing, we'll never grow cold"
The more I live
The more I know
What's simple is true
I love you
Twilight descends upon our silhouette
How soon spring comes
How soon spring forgets
I wanna hold time, say it will never begin
Old man winter be our friend
Old man winter be our friend
Cause the more I live
The more I know
What's simple is true
I love you
Song #11: Hero
Superchic(k)
(from: Last One Picked)
No one sits with him, he doesn't fit in
But we feel like we do when we make fun of him
Cause you want to belong, do you go along?
Cause his pain is the price paid for you to belong
It's not that you hate him or want him to die
But maybe he does home and thinks suicide
Or he comes back to school with a gun at his side
And a kindness from you might have saved his life
Heros are made when we make a choice
You could be a hero, heros do what is right
You could be a hero, you might save his life
You could be a hero, you could join the fight
For what's right, for what's right, for what's right
No one talks to her, she feels so alone
She's in too much pain to survive on her own
The hurt she can't handle overflows to a knife
She writes on her arm, wants to give up her life
Each day she goes on, is a day that she's brave
Fighting the lie that giving up is the way
Each moment of courage, her own life she saves
When she throws the pills out, a hero is made
Heros are made when we make a choice
CHORUS
No one talks to him about how he lives
He thinks that the choices he makes are just his
Doesn't know he's a leader with the way he behaves
And others will follow the choices he's made
He lives on the edge, he's old enough to decide
The brother who wants to be him is just nine
He can do what he wants because it's his right
The choices he makes, change a nine-year-olds life
Heros are made when we make a choice
CHORUS
Final Song: Final Curtain Call
Straight Edge (RIP)
(from: Shadows and Silhouettes)
The van is packed, we're ready to go
It's six-o-clock and we're on the road
And I won't forget this time we'll have
Memories, they just fly by
Three years I wonder why?
And I don't want to forget
This is our final curtain call
I know that we'll miss you all
I can't believe this is over
I'm sorry it's over
We're all gone tomorrow
When the shows is over and the clean up comes
Keep this in your heart, where it's from
Let those tears drip of memories
The future is waiting to take our lives
Let's not rush this night
Let's just keep holding on
CHORUS
Song #1: I'm Sensitive
Jewel
(from: pieces of you)
I was thinking, that I might fly today
Just to disprove all the things that you say
It doesn't take a talent to be mean
Your words can crush things that are unseen
So please be careful with me
I'm sensitive,
And I'd like to stay that way
You always tell me, that it's impossible
To be respected and be a girl
Why's it gotta be so complicated
Why you gotta tell me if I'm hated
So please be careful with me
I'm sensitive
And I'd like to stay that way
I was thinking that it might do some good
If we robbed the cynics and took all their food
That way what they believe will have taken place
And we'll give it to people who have faith
So please be careful with me
I'm sensitive
And I'd like to stay that way
I have this theory, that if we're told we're bad
Then that's the only idea we'll ever have
But maybe if we are surrounded in beauty
Someday we will become what we see
Cause anyone can start a conflict
It's harder yet to disregard it
I'd rather see the world from another angle
We are everyday angels
Be careful with me, cause I'd like to stay that way
Song #2: Things I'll Never Say
Avril Lavigne
(from: Let Go)
I'm tugging at my hair
I'm pulling at my clothes
I'm trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I'm staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I'm searching for the words inside my head
I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it
You're worth it..yeah..
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say that I want to blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down on one knee
Marry me today
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say
It don't do me any good
It's just a waste of time
What use is it to you?
What's on my mind?
If it ain't coming out
We're not going anywhere
So why can't I just show you that I care
Cause I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it,
You're worth it...yeah...
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I say what I want to see
I want to see you go down on one knee
Marry me today
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say
What's wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble
Like I've got nothing to say
La da da da da (continued)
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I say what I want to see
I want to see you go down on one knee
Marry me today
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say
Song #3: She's not just a pretty face
Shania Twain
(from: UP)
She hosts a TV show, she rides the rodeo
She plays the bass in a band
She's an astronaut
a valet at the parking lot
A farmer working the land
She is a champion, she gets the gold
She's a ballerina, the star of the show
She's not just a pretty face
She's got everything it takes
She has a fashion line
A journalist for "Time"
Coaches a football team
She's a geologist, a romance novelist
She is the mother of three
She is a soldier, she is a wife
She is a surgeon, she'll save your life
She's not just a pretty face
She's got everything it takes
She's the mother of the human race
She's not just a pretty face
Oh, Oh, yeah
Oh, na, na, na, na
She is your waitress, she is your judge
She is your teacher
She is every woman in the world
Oh, la,la, la
She flies an airplane
She drives a subway train
At night she pumps gasoline
She's on the council, she's on the board
She's a politician, she praises the Lord
She's not just a pretty face
She's got everything it takes
She's the mother of the human race
She's not just a pretty face
Song #4: Princes and Frogs
Superchic(k)
(from: Last One Picked)
You hate me, that's what you say
And I understand why you feel that way
All girls dream of a fairy tale
But all you got's like a used car sales-
Man trying to conceal what's wrong
Behind a smile and a song
And I'm not saying that boys are not like that
But I think you should know
That some of us will grow
because...
All princes start as frogs
All gentlemen as dogs
Just wait till it's plain to see
what we're growing up to be
Cause some frogs will still be frogs
Some dogs will still be dogs
But some boys will become men
Just don't kiss us til then
Song #5: As Lovers Go
Dashboard COnfessional
(from: A Mark~A Mission~A Brand~A Scar)
She said, "I've gotta be honest,
You're wasting you're time if you're fishing around here"
I said, "You must be mistaken,
I'm not fooling, this feeling is real"
She said, "You gotta be crazy!
What do you take me for? Some easy mark?"
"No, you've got wits,
You've got looks,
You've got passion,
But I swear that you've got me all wrong."
I'll be true,
I'll be useful,
I'll be cavalier,
I'll be yours my dear,
I'll belong to you if you just let me through.
This is easy as lovers go
So don't complicate it, by hesitating
This is wonderful as loving goes
This is tailor-made, what's the sense in waiting?
I said, "I've gotta be honest,
I've been waiting for you all my life."
For so long I thought I was asylum bound,
But just seeing you makes me think twice.
And being with you makes me sane
I fear I'll go crazy if you leave my side.
"You got wits,
You've got looks,
You've got passion,
But are you brave enough to leave with me tonight?"
Song #6: Carry You To Jesus
Steven Curtis Chapman
(from: Declaration)
I will not pretend to know the pain you're going through
I know I cannot comprehend the hurt you've known
And I used to think it mattered if I understood
But now I just don't know
Well, I'll admit sometimes I still wish I knew what to say
And I keep looking for a way to fix it all
But we know we're at the mercy of God's higher way
And our ways are so small
But I will carry you to Jesus
He is everything you need
I will carry you to Jesus on my knees
It's such a privilege for me to give this gift to you
All I'd ever hope you'd give me in return
Is to know that you'll be there to do the same for me
When the tables turn
But I will carry you to Jesus
He is everything you need
I will carry you to Jesus on my knees
And if you need to cry, go on and I will cry along with you
I'll give you what I have but still
I know the best thing I can do
Is just pray for you
I'll carry you
I'll take you to Jesus on my knees
Song #7: Hold Me Twice
FM Static
(from: What are you waiting for?)
I saw you in the hallway
I bet thats what they all say
You probably didn't even notice
I was the loser,
Who was staring at my shoes
I couldn't think of nothing to say
I'm on a runway
Of a flight that's going one way
On "Cross your fingers" airlines
I'm picking my pace
I'm getting nervous in the worst way
Here goes nothing,
I saw you walking over
Now you're moving closer
Wrote you a letter about a week ago
To my surprise, you replied and said:
You can hold me once, you can hold me twice
Even better if the stars are good tonight
You can hold me, be my one and only.
This is the reply to the letter you wrote me
You told me to meet you after gym class
But I forgot to get a hall pass
I got sent to the office
You tried to call me,
Asked everyone who saw me, they didn't even notice
You're on your way now
Moving with your parents to some hick town
A thousand miles away
I'm in the playground, with my memories
So much I could say now
I still remember when
I saw you walking over
You're slowly moving closer,
I wrote you a letter about a week ago
And to my surprise, you replied and said:
You can hold me once, you can hold me twice
Even better if the stars are good tonight
You can hold me, be my one and only
This is the reply to the letter you wrote me
It's been awhile since we said "hi"
three hundred sixty-five days have gone by now
And I could paint a picture of you
I see you everytime I pass your locket
Remember he time we talked till six am
And I'm tired of missing you
Song #8: Jefferson Aeroplane
Relient K
(from: 2 lefts don't make a right...but 3 do)
If it hurts, kiss it better
You wear skirts, I write nice letters
Never said nothing with flowers,
But we always talk for hours
And it seems to get much colder,
When you cry on your own shoulder
And we know the show must go on
Guess I know, I guess I'll throw on
Some Jefferson Aeroplane
I'm trapped and I am enclosed
But I won't complain,
I'll open all the windows
Cause when it's colder
I feel much better
When you cry on your own shoulder
Just throw on a sweater and go
And I'll go to undergo a change of heart, a chang of clothes
And when I'm home,
I guess I'll go eat cereal and stare out the window
I'll make the calls, you cover your ears
Niagra Falls still flows on New Years
I'll save your plunging neckline
Kiss your face, you try to deck mine
If I behave, it'ss gonna cost him
Skip the rave in Downtown Boston
And we know the show must go on
Guess I know, I guess I throw on...
CHORUS
And I'll go to undergo a surgery to purge me of this lonely mood
And my ego, the staus quo, provides me with a decent attitude
And I'll go to undergo a change of heart a chang of clothes
And when I'm home, I think I'll go eat cereal and stare out the window
But you confuse me more than anyone
An adjustment has begun to let me feel
The desperate need to leave what we undid undone
And maybe you can sympathize
With the bags under my eyes
And we'll see the signs are saying
that we have used up all our tries
Try to be a better person
To be a better friend
To be a better son
He tries to be a better someone
Who understands the difference
And that he can't show all the people, all the things
That really mean as much as he could feel
Feels like I don't remember
Ever being this tired before
Before now my eyes were closed to all the beauty of this world
And I'll go to undergo a surgery to purge me of this loney mood
And my ego, the status quo provides me with a decent attitude
And I'll go to undergo a change of heart a change of clothes
And I'll go, oh yes I'll go
And hope this new me shows so everybody knows
That I've found myself able to fly away
Without magic feathers or Jefferson Aeroplanes
I've got with me all that I need
Song #9: Airport Road
Straight Edge (RIP)
(from: Shadows and Silhouettes)
It's the summer, and I'm far from home
And I'd write you or call you on the phone
And then I remember what it was like
When I was free, when I was free
But it's over, far from now
And you're far from, my heart
And your speed dial, is off my phone
Ans I can't remember, your number
Romances and tragedies,
The best of friends we'll never be
Yeah the truth is on m tongue
I wish you could understand
I wanted nothing more than a friend
But I guess I was wrong
So I'll carry on with my life
And I guess that I don't care
Again is this over? Are you done?
Yeah, you're with him,
But your friends are gone
I could believe that you're the one
But I could be wrong
And this melody that's in my heart
Is telling me to stay away
Romances and tragedies
The best of friends, we'll never be
Yeah, the truth is on my tongue
I wish you could understand
I wanted nothing more than a friend
But I guess I was wrong
I wanted nothing more
Song #10: What's Simple is True
Jewel
(from: Spirit)
Turn to me with frozen lips
Your hands are icy cold
Your eyes burn brightly against the frist bit sky
You never seemed more lovely than you do tonight
Plae on the horizon
Like leaves frozen in the snow
Our two shadows merge inseparatly
Will time stand still if it's pierced with cold
The more I live
The more I know
What's simple is true
I love you
There's a warmth in my heart
It haunts me when you're gone
Mend me to your side and never let go
Say "Time knows nothing, we'll never grow cold"
The more I live
The more I know
What's simple is true
I love you
Twilight descends upon our silhouette
How soon spring comes
How soon spring forgets
I wanna hold time, say it will never begin
Old man winter be our friend
Old man winter be our friend
Cause the more I live
The more I know
What's simple is true
I love you
Song #11: Hero
Superchic(k)
(from: Last One Picked)
No one sits with him, he doesn't fit in
But we feel like we do when we make fun of him
Cause you want to belong, do you go along?
Cause his pain is the price paid for you to belong
It's not that you hate him or want him to die
But maybe he does home and thinks suicide
Or he comes back to school with a gun at his side
And a kindness from you might have saved his life
Heros are made when we make a choice
You could be a hero, heros do what is right
You could be a hero, you might save his life
You could be a hero, you could join the fight
For what's right, for what's right, for what's right
No one talks to her, she feels so alone
She's in too much pain to survive on her own
The hurt she can't handle overflows to a knife
She writes on her arm, wants to give up her life
Each day she goes on, is a day that she's brave
Fighting the lie that giving up is the way
Each moment of courage, her own life she saves
When she throws the pills out, a hero is made
Heros are made when we make a choice
CHORUS
No one talks to him about how he lives
He thinks that the choices he makes are just his
Doesn't know he's a leader with the way he behaves
And others will follow the choices he's made
He lives on the edge, he's old enough to decide
The brother who wants to be him is just nine
He can do what he wants because it's his right
The choices he makes, change a nine-year-olds life
Heros are made when we make a choice
CHORUS
Final Song: Final Curtain Call
Straight Edge (RIP)
(from: Shadows and Silhouettes)
The van is packed, we're ready to go
It's six-o-clock and we're on the road
And I won't forget this time we'll have
Memories, they just fly by
Three years I wonder why?
And I don't want to forget
This is our final curtain call
I know that we'll miss you all
I can't believe this is over
I'm sorry it's over
We're all gone tomorrow
When the shows is over and the clean up comes
Keep this in your heart, where it's from
Let those tears drip of memories
The future is waiting to take our lives
Let's not rush this night
Let's just keep holding on
CHORUS
Saturday, May 15, 2004
a little update on me....
Okay, I am seriously, like the worst blooger in the world...I have never been all that good at journaling...ask Graham...he knows what I am talking about...but I figured that it was time to catch you all up on the fun goings ons in my life at this present moment...
~My allergies are in full swing right now...the sneezing is driving me bananas...thats right, I said bananas
~My sister got married a couple weeks ago...but you all know that already...it was good.
~My sister and brother-in-law gave me a little tv...complete with bunny ears.
~My brother is currently moving out of his bedroom, so that the church can fix it, so that I can move into it...it is a tiny bit bigger than my current room...but not by much. I might be able to make it better by sticking my dresser into the huge walkin closet...but I am not really sure that this moment.
~I am leaving for camp in just over a month...I am working in the kitchen this year which does not have me overly thrilled but whatever, it is camp and it is money, so I will survive.
~I am graduating from Sheridan College in about 2 weeks...give or take 3...not quite sure on the right amount...but it is on June the 9th. We are having a party (well...my family is...) on the 5th of June...it is potluck...some of my friends will be invited...so if you hear from me either by phone or via email...that means you...please try to come...I love parties and people and this one is ALL ABOUT ME!
~My brother is going to the Dashboard Confessional Concert tonight and he isn't taking me...BOO
~My foot just fell asleep...seriously that was the weirdest feeling in the world
~My grandparents are home from Florida...they came home for the wedding...they might not come to my party
~Tomorrow I am going to Simcoe for my friend Amanda's wedding shower...why is it that everyone seems to be getting married lately...whose next? Anyone willing to place a bet on anyone...no...gambling is wrong
~So, my mom told me yesterday that I would be the perfect canadate for becoming addicted to gambling should I every try it...apparently this is because flashing lights facinated me as a child. Who knew
~My house is freezing cold...seriously...I need a parka
~I love Graham...but again, you all knew that, I just enjoy saying it because it is the truth I LOVE GRAHAM WARE!!!
~Jenelle's E-song of the day
Call Me
Cadet
I think about love, I think about life, I think about rock
I think about the times we used to hangout after school
I think about things, I think about you
I think about love, I think about life, I think about God
I think about the times we were loser acting cool
I think about you
You better call me, if you're going under
You better call me, before I lose another friend to misery
And if you're lonely, the we could T.P.
Just like we're thirteen
Throwing our worries ove rooftops and running off
And if ever you stumble, if ever you crumble
Just know I wont let you go
~My allergies are in full swing right now...the sneezing is driving me bananas...thats right, I said bananas
~My sister got married a couple weeks ago...but you all know that already...it was good.
~My sister and brother-in-law gave me a little tv...complete with bunny ears.
~My brother is currently moving out of his bedroom, so that the church can fix it, so that I can move into it...it is a tiny bit bigger than my current room...but not by much. I might be able to make it better by sticking my dresser into the huge walkin closet...but I am not really sure that this moment.
~I am leaving for camp in just over a month...I am working in the kitchen this year which does not have me overly thrilled but whatever, it is camp and it is money, so I will survive.
~I am graduating from Sheridan College in about 2 weeks...give or take 3...not quite sure on the right amount...but it is on June the 9th. We are having a party (well...my family is...) on the 5th of June...it is potluck...some of my friends will be invited...so if you hear from me either by phone or via email...that means you...please try to come...I love parties and people and this one is ALL ABOUT ME!
~My brother is going to the Dashboard Confessional Concert tonight and he isn't taking me...BOO
~My foot just fell asleep...seriously that was the weirdest feeling in the world
~My grandparents are home from Florida...they came home for the wedding...they might not come to my party
~Tomorrow I am going to Simcoe for my friend Amanda's wedding shower...why is it that everyone seems to be getting married lately...whose next? Anyone willing to place a bet on anyone...no...gambling is wrong
~So, my mom told me yesterday that I would be the perfect canadate for becoming addicted to gambling should I every try it...apparently this is because flashing lights facinated me as a child. Who knew
~My house is freezing cold...seriously...I need a parka
~I love Graham...but again, you all knew that, I just enjoy saying it because it is the truth I LOVE GRAHAM WARE!!!
~Jenelle's E-song of the day
Call Me
Cadet
I think about love, I think about life, I think about rock
I think about the times we used to hangout after school
I think about things, I think about you
I think about love, I think about life, I think about God
I think about the times we were loser acting cool
I think about you
You better call me, if you're going under
You better call me, before I lose another friend to misery
And if you're lonely, the we could T.P.
Just like we're thirteen
Throwing our worries ove rooftops and running off
And if ever you stumble, if ever you crumble
Just know I wont let you go
Wednesday, May 12, 2004
The end of an Era
First things first...what is with this new set up of blogger...that is really weird. Okay...moving on, Survivor is over, and here is my final summary for you all to enjoy:
Thirty-nine days, eighteen All-Stars, four tribes, dozens of broken alliances, two forfeitures, a budding romance and now, one Sole Survivor. Amber (austrailia), rode an alliance with her sweetheart in order to capture the million-dollar prize. In the gut-wrenching Final Tribal Council, Amber humbly admitted to the Jury that she got lucky and rode the alliance with Rob (Marquesas) to the end. Amber explained that she broke alliances to a lesser degree than Rob and therefore deserved to be Sole Survivor. The Jury agreed in a 4 to 3 decision, making Amber Brkich Sole Survivor and recipient of the one-million dollar prize. FINAL FOUR As night 36 took hold, the four remaining Chaboga Mogo tribe members took inventory of their situation. When Rupert (Pearl Island), went to pour out a bucket at the creek, Amber and Rob lobbied Jenna (Borneo), to vote off Rupert. "You have no chance to beat Rupert," Rob informed her. The surprised All-Stars were awakened by host Jeff Probst, who landed on their beach, gifts in hand: a breakfast spread of eggs, bacon, mimosas and pancakes. He also gave them a camera and scrapbook to collect the memories of their final days. The tribe shared in a grand toast of champagne and orange juice to making it to the coveted position of Final Four. "The four people that are in the Final Four are two distinct groups of two," assessed Rob, "There's no chance myself and Amber are going to break." As Amber and Jenna went to get water, they discussed Jenna's unique and difficult decision within the game. Jenna could vote for whoever doesn't win Immunity out of the Rob/Amber dyad with Rupert and cause a tie. In the event of a tie, the three All-Stars without Immunity would pick rocks out of a bag, with the castaway picking the purple rock being eliminated. Jenna's other choice would be to break her alliance and vote out Rupert, assuming he doesn't win Immunity, in order to go to the Final Three with Rob and Amber. "I didn't come thirty-seven days to reach into a bag and let a color decide my fate," Jenna declared, "So I'm taking fate into my own hands." As the four converged for an Immunity Challenge, Jeff Probst explained that they would have to negotiate a maze loaded with obstacles. At the end of each corridor would be a rung to a ladder for each Survivor. The first All-Star to assemble all eight of their rungs, thereby constructing a ladder on a tower, would then get to climb it and claim Immunity. The Challenge started off in a flurry as the Final Four Chaboga Mogo tribemates hurried into the labyrinth with purpose. Amber collected her first rung as Jenna fell behind. It was a close competition as each castaway collected rung after rung. It was dead even at five rungs each when Boston Rob became confused in the maze and fell behind. Rupert and Amber both collected their crucial seventh rungs, while Jenna and Rob were now playing catch-up. With his final rung in hand, Rupert ran toward the tower just in time to see Amber emerge at the top of her newly constructed ladder to claim the essential victory. Amber Brkich would live to see another day! After Amber won the Immunity Challenge, Jenna was faced with the problem she had feared would arise: should she vote for Rupert and go to the Final Three or vote for Rob and let her fate come down to chance? Back at camp, Jenna informed Rupert that she could not write his name down and so was going to vote the game into a tie. "My fate comes down to a 26-year-old single momma who wants to win very badly," noted Rupert. After much painful deliberation, Jenna simply could not let a purple rock decide her fate, and she voted Rupert off. Saddened, but not surprised, as he heard the three to one vote being read, Rupert will became the sixth member of the Jury and will have a say about who will become Sole Survivor and claim the million-dollar prize. Shortly after leaving Tribal Council, Rupert revealed, "I am a little angry at Jenna. Greed won out over friendship... almost disgustingly." After an early-morning visit from Jeff Probst, the three remaining Chaboga Mogo members were given a map to follow. After landing on an island where they adorned their bodies with a local tribe's war paints and jewelry, the Final Three All-Stars set along the trek that would lead them to their final Immunity Challenge. Along the journey, the Survivors passed by each of their fallen castaways' torches and reminisced about the 38 days they had spent on the Pearl Islands and of those they had spent it with. As the remaining three gathered for what would be their final Immunity Challenge, Jeff Probst explained they would battle in a test of endurance. The Survivors would have to balance themselves barefoot on a post, while holding onto to the Idol with one hand. Any All-Star who moved either foot off the post or touched the Idol with the free hand would lose. The last one standing would win Final Immunity. After an hour under the hot sun, the castaways were all in pain but holding strong. However, after two hours, Jenna Lewis inadvertently lifted her back foot off the post. With Jenna eliminated, Amber pleaded with Rob to let her win. Boston Rob, however, wanted to finish the Challenge fair and square. Fair and square it was, as Amber accidentally touched the Idol with her free hand to give Rob Mariano the coveted Final Immunity. Rob would also have the chance to choose who would join him in front of the Jury as the Final Two. Having been allied with Amber the entire time, Boston Rob made it clear he would be voting Jenna off at Tribal Council. That didn't stop Amber from being paranoid and a little scared. Rob even considered how the Jury would vote if he and Jenna were the Final Two. "I have seen him turn on people out here," confessed Amber, "I have seen him break his word. I just can't help but to feel nervous." Proving his alliance with Amber was strong, Rob Mariano kept his word and voted off Jenna Lewis. Jenna was not surprised at all and bravely stood as Jeff Probst extinguished her torch. Jenna became the final member of the Jury that will decide who earns both the title of Sole Survivor and the million-dollar prize. Shortly after the fateful decision, Jenna noted, "This time I am very proud of the way I played the game. I didn't get blindsided. I think I was more observant and more strategic. And I had a lot more fun; that's for sure." After spending a final night together, Rob and Amber prepared to meet the Jury the next day. They would each have to plead their case for why they should be the Sole Survivor and why they deserved the million-dollar prize. Despite competing with each other for the final slot, Rob and Amber enjoyed romantic moments, with the camp to themselves for the first time. "Over the first couple of days, there was a lot of flirting going on, and it turned into something real," remarked Amber, "Now we have an amazing bond." As the Final Two Chaboga Mogo tribe members sat down at Tribal Council, the Jury assembled to ask questions that would help them decide who would win the million dollars. As the emotional statements were made, many angrily alluding to Rob's deception and hurtful strategy, Rob stared blankly into the distance. As the questions rolled in and the answers rolled out, Rob defended his actions as part of the game. He also admitted that maybe he wasn't that proud of himself. Amber confessed that her position in the Final Two was partly due to luck and partly to riding Rob's coattails. After much deliberation, the Jury voted for Amber in a 4 to 3 decision and bestowed the title of All-Star Sole Survivor and the million-dollar prize.
Thirty-nine days, eighteen All-Stars, four tribes, dozens of broken alliances, two forfeitures, a budding romance and now, one Sole Survivor. Amber (austrailia), rode an alliance with her sweetheart in order to capture the million-dollar prize. In the gut-wrenching Final Tribal Council, Amber humbly admitted to the Jury that she got lucky and rode the alliance with Rob (Marquesas) to the end. Amber explained that she broke alliances to a lesser degree than Rob and therefore deserved to be Sole Survivor. The Jury agreed in a 4 to 3 decision, making Amber Brkich Sole Survivor and recipient of the one-million dollar prize. FINAL FOUR As night 36 took hold, the four remaining Chaboga Mogo tribe members took inventory of their situation. When Rupert (Pearl Island), went to pour out a bucket at the creek, Amber and Rob lobbied Jenna (Borneo), to vote off Rupert. "You have no chance to beat Rupert," Rob informed her. The surprised All-Stars were awakened by host Jeff Probst, who landed on their beach, gifts in hand: a breakfast spread of eggs, bacon, mimosas and pancakes. He also gave them a camera and scrapbook to collect the memories of their final days. The tribe shared in a grand toast of champagne and orange juice to making it to the coveted position of Final Four. "The four people that are in the Final Four are two distinct groups of two," assessed Rob, "There's no chance myself and Amber are going to break." As Amber and Jenna went to get water, they discussed Jenna's unique and difficult decision within the game. Jenna could vote for whoever doesn't win Immunity out of the Rob/Amber dyad with Rupert and cause a tie. In the event of a tie, the three All-Stars without Immunity would pick rocks out of a bag, with the castaway picking the purple rock being eliminated. Jenna's other choice would be to break her alliance and vote out Rupert, assuming he doesn't win Immunity, in order to go to the Final Three with Rob and Amber. "I didn't come thirty-seven days to reach into a bag and let a color decide my fate," Jenna declared, "So I'm taking fate into my own hands." As the four converged for an Immunity Challenge, Jeff Probst explained that they would have to negotiate a maze loaded with obstacles. At the end of each corridor would be a rung to a ladder for each Survivor. The first All-Star to assemble all eight of their rungs, thereby constructing a ladder on a tower, would then get to climb it and claim Immunity. The Challenge started off in a flurry as the Final Four Chaboga Mogo tribemates hurried into the labyrinth with purpose. Amber collected her first rung as Jenna fell behind. It was a close competition as each castaway collected rung after rung. It was dead even at five rungs each when Boston Rob became confused in the maze and fell behind. Rupert and Amber both collected their crucial seventh rungs, while Jenna and Rob were now playing catch-up. With his final rung in hand, Rupert ran toward the tower just in time to see Amber emerge at the top of her newly constructed ladder to claim the essential victory. Amber Brkich would live to see another day! After Amber won the Immunity Challenge, Jenna was faced with the problem she had feared would arise: should she vote for Rupert and go to the Final Three or vote for Rob and let her fate come down to chance? Back at camp, Jenna informed Rupert that she could not write his name down and so was going to vote the game into a tie. "My fate comes down to a 26-year-old single momma who wants to win very badly," noted Rupert. After much painful deliberation, Jenna simply could not let a purple rock decide her fate, and she voted Rupert off. Saddened, but not surprised, as he heard the three to one vote being read, Rupert will became the sixth member of the Jury and will have a say about who will become Sole Survivor and claim the million-dollar prize. Shortly after leaving Tribal Council, Rupert revealed, "I am a little angry at Jenna. Greed won out over friendship... almost disgustingly." After an early-morning visit from Jeff Probst, the three remaining Chaboga Mogo members were given a map to follow. After landing on an island where they adorned their bodies with a local tribe's war paints and jewelry, the Final Three All-Stars set along the trek that would lead them to their final Immunity Challenge. Along the journey, the Survivors passed by each of their fallen castaways' torches and reminisced about the 38 days they had spent on the Pearl Islands and of those they had spent it with. As the remaining three gathered for what would be their final Immunity Challenge, Jeff Probst explained they would battle in a test of endurance. The Survivors would have to balance themselves barefoot on a post, while holding onto to the Idol with one hand. Any All-Star who moved either foot off the post or touched the Idol with the free hand would lose. The last one standing would win Final Immunity. After an hour under the hot sun, the castaways were all in pain but holding strong. However, after two hours, Jenna Lewis inadvertently lifted her back foot off the post. With Jenna eliminated, Amber pleaded with Rob to let her win. Boston Rob, however, wanted to finish the Challenge fair and square. Fair and square it was, as Amber accidentally touched the Idol with her free hand to give Rob Mariano the coveted Final Immunity. Rob would also have the chance to choose who would join him in front of the Jury as the Final Two. Having been allied with Amber the entire time, Boston Rob made it clear he would be voting Jenna off at Tribal Council. That didn't stop Amber from being paranoid and a little scared. Rob even considered how the Jury would vote if he and Jenna were the Final Two. "I have seen him turn on people out here," confessed Amber, "I have seen him break his word. I just can't help but to feel nervous." Proving his alliance with Amber was strong, Rob Mariano kept his word and voted off Jenna Lewis. Jenna was not surprised at all and bravely stood as Jeff Probst extinguished her torch. Jenna became the final member of the Jury that will decide who earns both the title of Sole Survivor and the million-dollar prize. Shortly after the fateful decision, Jenna noted, "This time I am very proud of the way I played the game. I didn't get blindsided. I think I was more observant and more strategic. And I had a lot more fun; that's for sure." After spending a final night together, Rob and Amber prepared to meet the Jury the next day. They would each have to plead their case for why they should be the Sole Survivor and why they deserved the million-dollar prize. Despite competing with each other for the final slot, Rob and Amber enjoyed romantic moments, with the camp to themselves for the first time. "Over the first couple of days, there was a lot of flirting going on, and it turned into something real," remarked Amber, "Now we have an amazing bond." As the Final Two Chaboga Mogo tribe members sat down at Tribal Council, the Jury assembled to ask questions that would help them decide who would win the million dollars. As the emotional statements were made, many angrily alluding to Rob's deception and hurtful strategy, Rob stared blankly into the distance. As the questions rolled in and the answers rolled out, Rob defended his actions as part of the game. He also admitted that maybe he wasn't that proud of himself. Amber confessed that her position in the Final Two was partly due to luck and partly to riding Rob's coattails. After much deliberation, the Jury voted for Amber in a 4 to 3 decision and bestowed the title of All-Star Sole Survivor and the million-dollar prize.
Friday, May 07, 2004
Sad night for viewers
Well...last night was a sad night in TV Land...mainly because Friends came to an end after 10 years...and they have narrowed the Survivor lot down to the final four..which means that it too is coming to a close. Here is what happened last night.
With deception and paranoia growing with each passing day, SURVIVOR: ALL-STARS has been whittled down to the Final Four Chaboga Mogos. Feeling secure in his alliance with Rob and Amber, Tom (AFRICA), was shocked to hear his name read at Tribal Council. Big Tom had mistakenly thought Jenna (BORNEO), was the target of the alliance, which sent him home in a four-to-one vote. Shortly after seeing his torch extinguished, Big Tom rationalized, "Don't worry about me. If you can live with it, I can live with it. And I'm going to live with it happily ever after." As day 34 crept into the Chaboga Mogo camp, the five remaining castaways were feeling the weight of the journey. Niceties were no more. Silence ruled the camp, and the game was the only thing on every All-Star's mind. "Camp life is hard. And as it gets down to the last few days, it's getting harder everyday," explained Rupert (PEARL ISLANDS). After breaking away from the tribe, Jenna and Rupert discussed their alliance. Just as they were strategizing about possibly voting off Rob (MARQUESAS), Rob appeared out of nowhere, to the horror of the scheming tribemates. Paranoid, Rob then expressed his fear of mutiny to Amber (AUSTRAILIA). "I was under the assumption that the game would be easier in the end," mused Amber, "Because I knew we had our strategy set in the beginning and that we weren't really gonna have to worry about it too much in the end. But I was completely wrong." As the tribe convened for a Reward Challenge, they were delighted to see a brand new Chevy Colorado truck parked in the clearing. Host Jeff Probst explained that this Challenge would give the castaways a second chance at some of the obstacles from Challenges past. The five All-Stars must first negotiate a long balance beam, and the last to cross it would be eliminated. The remaining four castaways must then do a military crawl to a slide puzzle; the last to finish the puzzle would be ousted. The three remaining must then stomp an item from a balance beam into a raised bucket three times; the last to do so would be eliminated. The final two must then compete by climbing a rope ladder to catch a flying fox. The first All-Star to jump off the flying fox and grab a waiting set of keys would win the Reward: the Chevy Colorado truck, which the winner would get to drive off immediately in order to enjoy a drive-in movie replete with refreshments. The competition started off with a close race over the balance beams, and Rupert fell off. The second round came down to the difficult slide puzzles, which Jenna just could not figure out in time. Tom had trouble figuring out the stomp competition and simply could not launch his item into the bucket three times. The Challenge came down to Amber versus Rob. In a close race, Boston Rob scaled the rope ladder just a nose quicker than Amber, which made all the difference. Excited, Rob swooshed down the flying fox then snapped up the keys to his new Chevy Colorado. Boston Rob was then offered the chance to invite another member of Chaboga Mogo to join him for the movie and he chose his sweetheart, Amber. After driving his new Chevy Colorado through the Panamanian jungle, Boston Rob was happy to arrive at the makeshift drive-in movie theater. His movie companion, Amber, was even happier when she was surprised with a Reward of her own: a brand new Chevy Malibu. The couple and their new cars then set in to watch a screening of "Lord of the Flies," a movie that serves as an inspiration and shares many of the same themes as SURVIVOR. "Time alone with Amber was unbelievable," smiled Rob, "For the first time, I didn't have to think about the game at all." After the couple returned to camp, they relayed the news of Amber's new car. It was obvious that the other members of Chaboga Mogo were jealous, more bitter than happy for Amber. "If there is a little SURVIVOR hex that keeps the car winners from winning the game, I would love that," Rupert admitted, "That would be my little justice." Feeling vulnerable after witnessing Rupert and Tom confer in private, Boston Rob tried to pit one against the other. Rob claimed that Big Tom was gunning for him, and he knew this because Rupert had told him so. Rob's lie worked, as Rupert and Big Tom had it out on the beach. "Did you or did you not tell me we needed to get Rob off?" Rupert repeatedly asked Big Tom. As the tribe reconvened for the Immunity Challenge, Jeff Probst explained that this competition would be a word scramble. Each castaway must search amongst a jumble of letters for a list of former SURVIVOR tribe names. The 17 tribe names would intersect and share letters. Once all tribe names have been found, the intersecting letters would unscramble to form the winning word. The first Survivor to unscramble the winning word would win the crucial Immunity. The five remaining All-Stars worked diligently to unscramble the tribe names from SURVIVORS past, as Amber took the lead, with Boston Rob and Jenna not far behind. Big Tom and Rupert fell back. Amber held her lead and was first to reach seventeen words, but she had trouble unscrambling the final winning word. Shortly after getting his seventeenth word correct, Rob immediately guessed the winning word to be "Chaboga Mogo" to take Immunity right out from under Amber's nose. Boston Rob would be wearing the coveted necklace at that night's Tribal Council. As Tribal Council loomed near, the members of Chaboga Mogo were panicked, making sure their alliances were still intact. Sensing she was on the chopping block, Amber feared Big Tom would join Jenna and Rupert in order to vote her off. After pulling Big Tom aside, Rob and Amber pressured him into reassuring them that their alliance was still strong. "What you tell me, that's what I'm putting on that card," Tom promised Rob and Amber. In the end, Tom kept his promise to Amber and Rob by writing down the name he was told. However, Amber and Rob didn't keep their promise to Tom by writing down his name. Livid, Big Tom was shocked as he witnessed the four-to-one vote that expelled him from the Chaboga Mogo tribe. Tom became the fifth member of the Jury and will now have a hand in deciding who will win the million-dollar prize and earn the name Sole Survivor. And the lookhe gave the final surivors could kill someone...priceless right there
With deception and paranoia growing with each passing day, SURVIVOR: ALL-STARS has been whittled down to the Final Four Chaboga Mogos. Feeling secure in his alliance with Rob and Amber, Tom (AFRICA), was shocked to hear his name read at Tribal Council. Big Tom had mistakenly thought Jenna (BORNEO), was the target of the alliance, which sent him home in a four-to-one vote. Shortly after seeing his torch extinguished, Big Tom rationalized, "Don't worry about me. If you can live with it, I can live with it. And I'm going to live with it happily ever after." As day 34 crept into the Chaboga Mogo camp, the five remaining castaways were feeling the weight of the journey. Niceties were no more. Silence ruled the camp, and the game was the only thing on every All-Star's mind. "Camp life is hard. And as it gets down to the last few days, it's getting harder everyday," explained Rupert (PEARL ISLANDS). After breaking away from the tribe, Jenna and Rupert discussed their alliance. Just as they were strategizing about possibly voting off Rob (MARQUESAS), Rob appeared out of nowhere, to the horror of the scheming tribemates. Paranoid, Rob then expressed his fear of mutiny to Amber (AUSTRAILIA). "I was under the assumption that the game would be easier in the end," mused Amber, "Because I knew we had our strategy set in the beginning and that we weren't really gonna have to worry about it too much in the end. But I was completely wrong." As the tribe convened for a Reward Challenge, they were delighted to see a brand new Chevy Colorado truck parked in the clearing. Host Jeff Probst explained that this Challenge would give the castaways a second chance at some of the obstacles from Challenges past. The five All-Stars must first negotiate a long balance beam, and the last to cross it would be eliminated. The remaining four castaways must then do a military crawl to a slide puzzle; the last to finish the puzzle would be ousted. The three remaining must then stomp an item from a balance beam into a raised bucket three times; the last to do so would be eliminated. The final two must then compete by climbing a rope ladder to catch a flying fox. The first All-Star to jump off the flying fox and grab a waiting set of keys would win the Reward: the Chevy Colorado truck, which the winner would get to drive off immediately in order to enjoy a drive-in movie replete with refreshments. The competition started off with a close race over the balance beams, and Rupert fell off. The second round came down to the difficult slide puzzles, which Jenna just could not figure out in time. Tom had trouble figuring out the stomp competition and simply could not launch his item into the bucket three times. The Challenge came down to Amber versus Rob. In a close race, Boston Rob scaled the rope ladder just a nose quicker than Amber, which made all the difference. Excited, Rob swooshed down the flying fox then snapped up the keys to his new Chevy Colorado. Boston Rob was then offered the chance to invite another member of Chaboga Mogo to join him for the movie and he chose his sweetheart, Amber. After driving his new Chevy Colorado through the Panamanian jungle, Boston Rob was happy to arrive at the makeshift drive-in movie theater. His movie companion, Amber, was even happier when she was surprised with a Reward of her own: a brand new Chevy Malibu. The couple and their new cars then set in to watch a screening of "Lord of the Flies," a movie that serves as an inspiration and shares many of the same themes as SURVIVOR. "Time alone with Amber was unbelievable," smiled Rob, "For the first time, I didn't have to think about the game at all." After the couple returned to camp, they relayed the news of Amber's new car. It was obvious that the other members of Chaboga Mogo were jealous, more bitter than happy for Amber. "If there is a little SURVIVOR hex that keeps the car winners from winning the game, I would love that," Rupert admitted, "That would be my little justice." Feeling vulnerable after witnessing Rupert and Tom confer in private, Boston Rob tried to pit one against the other. Rob claimed that Big Tom was gunning for him, and he knew this because Rupert had told him so. Rob's lie worked, as Rupert and Big Tom had it out on the beach. "Did you or did you not tell me we needed to get Rob off?" Rupert repeatedly asked Big Tom. As the tribe reconvened for the Immunity Challenge, Jeff Probst explained that this competition would be a word scramble. Each castaway must search amongst a jumble of letters for a list of former SURVIVOR tribe names. The 17 tribe names would intersect and share letters. Once all tribe names have been found, the intersecting letters would unscramble to form the winning word. The first Survivor to unscramble the winning word would win the crucial Immunity. The five remaining All-Stars worked diligently to unscramble the tribe names from SURVIVORS past, as Amber took the lead, with Boston Rob and Jenna not far behind. Big Tom and Rupert fell back. Amber held her lead and was first to reach seventeen words, but she had trouble unscrambling the final winning word. Shortly after getting his seventeenth word correct, Rob immediately guessed the winning word to be "Chaboga Mogo" to take Immunity right out from under Amber's nose. Boston Rob would be wearing the coveted necklace at that night's Tribal Council. As Tribal Council loomed near, the members of Chaboga Mogo were panicked, making sure their alliances were still intact. Sensing she was on the chopping block, Amber feared Big Tom would join Jenna and Rupert in order to vote her off. After pulling Big Tom aside, Rob and Amber pressured him into reassuring them that their alliance was still strong. "What you tell me, that's what I'm putting on that card," Tom promised Rob and Amber. In the end, Tom kept his promise to Amber and Rob by writing down the name he was told. However, Amber and Rob didn't keep their promise to Tom by writing down his name. Livid, Big Tom was shocked as he witnessed the four-to-one vote that expelled him from the Chaboga Mogo tribe. Tom became the fifth member of the Jury and will now have a hand in deciding who will win the million-dollar prize and earn the name Sole Survivor. And the lookhe gave the final surivors could kill someone...priceless right there
Wednesday, May 05, 2004
Weddings
Hi All,
I realize that I said I would start writing after the wedding, but seriously, I just got my bearings back this morning, so here I go. The wedding of my sister Jen to Rob Augustine was absolutely beautiful. I have yet to see a more radiant bride in my life. The love between the two of them is so real, and so pure that it just made me cry throughout the entire thing. The church was packed for the ceremony and the reception hall seemed even fuller (it wasn't really, just a smaller space) But several people showed up from the church and community to celebrate the vows between these two. The wedding party was made up of 14 people (bride and groom included) but it had Me as maid of honour, Judson Stade (Rob's best friend) as Best man. The bridesmaids were Jean Brown (Jen's BLEC roommate), Caitlin Lorimer Duerkson (Jen's friend), Cathy Margeson (Jen's friend) and April Augustine (Rob's little sister). The usher's were Michael Augustine (Rob's little brother), Ryan Rushton (Rob's friend), Jonathan West (My brother) and Nathan Augustine (Rob's littest brother) The flower girl was Andrea Augustine and the ring bearer was Matthew Price (both cousin's of Rob) I have included some pictures if you are so inclined to see them.
Jen and Rob wedding pictures part 1
I am also including as my e-songs of the day, the lyrics to the two solos that were sung during the ceremony, they were beautiful
God Bless the Broken Road
Geoff Moore (sung in ceremony by Amanda Sutherland)
I set out on a narrow way
Many years ago
Hoping I would find true love
Along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
I wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign
Pointed straight to you
That every long lost dream
Led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart
They were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way
Into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
I think about the years I spent
Just passing through
I'd like to have them back again
And give them all to you
But you just smile
And take my hand
You've been there
And you understand
It's all of a grander plan
That is coming true
That every long lost dream
Led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart
They were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way
Into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
Now I keep rolling on
Into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
Can't Live a Day
Avalon (sung by Beth Walker Rushton)
I could live life alone
And never fill the longings of my heart
The healing warmth of someone's arms
And I could live without dreams
And never know the thrill of what could be
With every star so far and out of reach
I could live without many things
And I could carry on, but
I couldn't face my life tomorrow
Without Your hope in my heart I know
I can't live a day without You
Lord, there's no night and there's no morning
Without Your loving arms to hold me
You're the heartbeat of all I do
I can't live a day without You
I could travel the world
See all the wonders beautiful and new
They'd only make me think of You
And I could have all life offers
Riches that were far beyond compare
To grant my every wish without a care
Oh, I could do anything, oh yes
But if You weren't in it all
I couldn't face my life tomorrow
Without Your hope in my heart I know
I can't live a day without You
Lord, there's no night and there's no morning
Without Your loving arms to hold me
You're the heartbeat of all I do
I can't live a day without You
Jesus, I live because You live
You're like the air I breathe
Oh Jesus, oh, I have because You give
You're everything to me
I couldn't face my life tomorrow
Without Your hope in my heart I know
I can't live a day without You
Lord, there's no night and there's no morning
Without Your loving arms to hold me
You're the heartbeat of all I do
I can't live a day without You
I realize that I said I would start writing after the wedding, but seriously, I just got my bearings back this morning, so here I go. The wedding of my sister Jen to Rob Augustine was absolutely beautiful. I have yet to see a more radiant bride in my life. The love between the two of them is so real, and so pure that it just made me cry throughout the entire thing. The church was packed for the ceremony and the reception hall seemed even fuller (it wasn't really, just a smaller space) But several people showed up from the church and community to celebrate the vows between these two. The wedding party was made up of 14 people (bride and groom included) but it had Me as maid of honour, Judson Stade (Rob's best friend) as Best man. The bridesmaids were Jean Brown (Jen's BLEC roommate), Caitlin Lorimer Duerkson (Jen's friend), Cathy Margeson (Jen's friend) and April Augustine (Rob's little sister). The usher's were Michael Augustine (Rob's little brother), Ryan Rushton (Rob's friend), Jonathan West (My brother) and Nathan Augustine (Rob's littest brother) The flower girl was Andrea Augustine and the ring bearer was Matthew Price (both cousin's of Rob) I have included some pictures if you are so inclined to see them.
Jen and Rob wedding pictures part 1
I am also including as my e-songs of the day, the lyrics to the two solos that were sung during the ceremony, they were beautiful
God Bless the Broken Road
Geoff Moore (sung in ceremony by Amanda Sutherland)
I set out on a narrow way
Many years ago
Hoping I would find true love
Along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
I wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign
Pointed straight to you
That every long lost dream
Led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart
They were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way
Into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
I think about the years I spent
Just passing through
I'd like to have them back again
And give them all to you
But you just smile
And take my hand
You've been there
And you understand
It's all of a grander plan
That is coming true
That every long lost dream
Led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart
They were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way
Into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
Now I keep rolling on
Into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
Can't Live a Day
Avalon (sung by Beth Walker Rushton)
I could live life alone
And never fill the longings of my heart
The healing warmth of someone's arms
And I could live without dreams
And never know the thrill of what could be
With every star so far and out of reach
I could live without many things
And I could carry on, but
I couldn't face my life tomorrow
Without Your hope in my heart I know
I can't live a day without You
Lord, there's no night and there's no morning
Without Your loving arms to hold me
You're the heartbeat of all I do
I can't live a day without You
I could travel the world
See all the wonders beautiful and new
They'd only make me think of You
And I could have all life offers
Riches that were far beyond compare
To grant my every wish without a care
Oh, I could do anything, oh yes
But if You weren't in it all
I couldn't face my life tomorrow
Without Your hope in my heart I know
I can't live a day without You
Lord, there's no night and there's no morning
Without Your loving arms to hold me
You're the heartbeat of all I do
I can't live a day without You
Jesus, I live because You live
You're like the air I breathe
Oh Jesus, oh, I have because You give
You're everything to me
I couldn't face my life tomorrow
Without Your hope in my heart I know
I can't live a day without You
Lord, there's no night and there's no morning
Without Your loving arms to hold me
You're the heartbeat of all I do
I can't live a day without You
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